I was that kid in the corner, all alone and sad.

Had no friends, birthdays reminded me of that, and certainly money was no substitute. I was born in Khabarovsk, Russia, raised with love by Babushka (grandmother) and with hate by my city. The same city the famous rapper "Slava-Kpss" comes from, we went to the same high school.

March 12th of 2020 was a terrible day in my life. Not because of the Bitcoin crash, but because the Japanese firm, where I worked as an accountant, closed due to COVID and I was forced to return to Russia.

I thought a lot during those days.

I still can't explain why, but I've changed.

My mind started to function differently. Maybe it was the book "Black Swan", or anger caused by the chaos in which the world appeared to be in. Anyway, I bought the dip with 5x margin and money printer exploded (I've documented the trades).

Meanwhile in Khabarovsk, the Russian soul was suffering and I was with it…

To understand post-Soviet present, you need to sneak a peek at the films "Leviathan", "Loveless" and "The Student". I cried on each of them, on "Leviathan" maybe less, it just reminded me of where I live without leaving the house. At the same time, how fortunate I am to have found Bitcoin, like CryptoCobain found God in "lithium".

Today's Russia is the kid from the 90's. Pregnant USSR was abandoned by the God of Communism, and all the evil became reality. Castlevania pretty much describes what happened.

The war started, the Ruble got hard forked. The Soviet Ruble became worthless, because the government, which it was backed by, had disappeared. Now, a new government with a new coin, but bearing the same name, had appeared. Mafia came to power, and economic crisis was followed by the default of 1998.

Right at that time, radical nationalism had emerged, and in all post-Soviet republics, dictators came to power. The Baltic countries were an exception. People say Putin made Russia great, but it was a merit of the free market. As "Perestroika" left priceless heritage, like the railroad system. The reality is that today's democratic Russia is not capable of building new infrastructure, because all the money is being stolen, as seen in this documentary film (turn on English subtitles).

Nationalism and dictatorship typically emerge in poor countries with election systems, while socialism emerge in rich countries. Of course, dictatorship is not better at all. Take the Soviet Union for example; it's frustrating to think that the government can be powerful and rich, while people are unhappy and poor. Economy is a strong machine, which has nothing to do with democracy. You put money into infrastructure, economy is booming, less laws - more freedom, people are happy, easy as that. But in a democratic system, one man can come to power and fuck it all up.

Putin was elected trough democracy, and if Russia were more democratic we would have elected Hitler. Democracy gives the ability to interrupt into humans' life, like the FED does when Stonks fall. Freedom to be able to influence individuals' life. This is not the kind of freedom that I am searching for.

You certainly don't need democracy to decide what rights people have. Countries only exist thanks to the borders, but individuals are perfectly capable of having rights without a constitution.

It's obvious that people need to be free everywhere. Governments wage war, and I am forced to serve in the army before I’m 28.

The Solution is deflation, where inefficient governments die out. In an inflationary economy, governments continue to deliver poverty. The Bitcoin protocol doesn't change, but philosophical debate around it evolves.

After I left Japan, trading became my only source of income. In 3 years of trading Bitcoin I've experienced pain from being wrong, and pain is a big part of a truly free market. We have bloodbaths at regular intervals and I say let the blood be bled.

Pain is not new to me. I was constantly running from army and jobs worse than slavery. Depression was always part of my life, and pain with it, but at the end of the day it taught me how to be an independent individual.

I can't remember life before trading, because it sucked.

Now trading is my life source. I didn't even hesitate on my decision. From day one of trading, it felt like I had an edge over the market. Overall I’m a very cautious person, If I wasn't sure that I would succeed, I would not have traded for so long.

I had difficulties explaining to my grandmother how I was making money since I became unemployed. The simplest way to put it was: "You click a button, wait for a while and then you get the money". She still seems to be confused.

Trading is not a bad thing. If you are a swing trader, and have an eye on the big time frames, you are doing research on the future money and the future as a whole. I am talking about the real traders, who are analyzing the most valuable data, price itself.

So, trading can be frustrating and at the same time exciting, although all I really want is freedom. I want to sit at home, sometimes travel, trade and listen to ambient music.

Only Bitcoin gives me the freedom to be what I want to be.